Monday, July 9, 2012

I keep holding my breath expecting a breakdown at any moment.  It is in 10 more days, after all.  Inside of me, it's still ok.  I'm almost nervous I am still ok.  The tears still spring up, the hurt still stings my heart but I am still standing, still moving, still smiling, still living.  I'm praying this is peace and not avoidance.  I know what avoidance can do to me.  Wreck havoc on my soul.  The month of May still makes me sick.  Trying to focus on Daniel and not how Daniel left.  Holding my breath and waiting for his marker to be placed and hoping it doesn't break me to see it.  Trying to stand tall and make it.


  1. It's peace- GOD-GIVEN PEACE. Hold onto it and claim it as yours, because it IS yours, as a child of God. I continue to pray for that very thing for you, as that day approaches. Love you friend

  2. You are walking this road better than I have seen.....keep holding on to God!

  3. I think we are all feeling that peace. It is a blessing but also proof that God has worked in us all the past year and rebuilt what was shaken. He wouldn't bring us through all of this to let one day destroy that. It doesn't mean Daniel wasn't loved. He is loved and lives within each of us. The journey isn't over here. For those who believe in Christ there is no end! This is the promise of God's word.

    For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16

    You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you!
    Isaiah 26:3