Alright, God. Here we go, the week I've been dreading. I'm going to need you- a lot. We had a good talk and a good cry yesterday. That peace I prayed for? I totally feel it today. Thank you. The people I asked for to help me? Thank you for placing me in their hearts. I finally listened and made the appointment to speak to a counselor. This is the perfect week to finally do it. But, of course, you already knew that. I'm under no illusion that I'm going to make it through this week without crying-already cried multiple times today-or dreading the holiday and Daniel's birthday. But I know I can make this week what I want of it; I could literally break myself with sadness or I can cry when I need to and treasure the blessings you're giving me this season. I'm looking straight up to you, Lord, because looking anywhere else isn't helping and I'm really starting to dislike myself. So, let's do this, God. I'm ready.

Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil...Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and the body armor of God’s righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared. In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil. Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

Ephesians 6:11,14-17