Thursday, July 18, 2013

2 years

2 years. It's not a time of celebration. It definitely doesn't conjure up good memories. But it's a date that cannot go without recognition. Some days I still have to wrap my head around the idea that this is truly a part of my life. Some days I am absolutely jealous of others who carry all of their children in their heart and arms; especially those with 3. Some days I look at my family and physically feel the empty spot where he should be. And then some days I have joy. I have happiness. I have a thankfulness so great for the presence of God's grace in my life. Some days I sit with my phone typing words like this out because I will continue to use my testimony to God's greatness and power to overcome tragedy. 
In all of those days I make a specific point to reflect on where I am and what's been overcome. I make a conscious decision everyday to battle my grief and reign. I may not always win the day, but I know I've already won the war. My sweet boy is waiting for me and I will always seek joy in that. 
So, for this 2 year mark, I will take Jake to VBS. I will spend time with Ryan at Daniel's spot.  I will be reminded of the mark Daniel has on so many people and I will close that around my heart. I will spend time with family and I will eat an Oreo just for him. And I will continue to honor a God that has always been at my side.

Psalm 84:11-12 For the Lord God is our sun and our shield.He gives us grace and glory.The Lord will withhold no good thing from those who do what is right. O Lord of Heaven’s Armies,what joy for those who trust in you. 


  1. Well said....<3

    I thought that was you who was waving to me at VBS. How great to see you! Your countenance has a glow that comes from the Lord in your life. :)

  2. Been thinking about you and Ryan as this week approached. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Daniel is very much remembered and never forgotten.

    1. Thank you so much, Rebecca! I really appreciate it :)

  3. <3 I still think about Daniel often. I'm thankful I got to know him and I am thankful for your friendship.

    This is a beautiful post, dear. <3

  4. "I may not always win the day, but I know I've already won the war."

    Amen. <3